Wednesday, August 09, 2006
i just hate hipocrisy. And i really mean it. i just hate it when friends label you as a mugger. but behind your back, they themselves are burying their heads in books and sleeping 3 hours a day. Or some pple can act like a nice and goody friend in front of you while in the next moment they give you the cold shoulder for goodness what reason. OR so-called friends can just ramble on insensitive remarks.
such treatment hurts. it's worse when such treatment drags on for more than a year. that is why it makes me wonder if ive chosen the wrong jc. maybe i shd have chosen njc instead.
but luckily, i still got some close friends and my cca peeps! i still got a couple of months to hopefully change my perception of certain peeps.
yesterday's event was indeed highly climax-induced. i shall leave out the details. but till now, i haven't forget what happened. was it too much of a coincidence? haiz. i was feeling darn scared as the train approaches and my initution was darn accurate. luckily i got my 'bodyguards' around me and 'rescued' me to safety before i bumped into him. as i swiftly left the area, i was awfully frightened till i teared silently.
i feel sorry for myself that im such a weakling. i DUN understand why im acting in such a way after such a freaking long time. yesh, ive moved on. but why am i so afraid of seeing him? so much so that i dun even want to know any news about him. i heard he has become haggard and worn out. ohwells.
when will i ever be brave to meet him again?
oh yesh. i just hate myself for acting in such a way.
soon that name will disappear off the list.
no matter how hard i may try to keep in on,
i know it's a matter of time it will be erased.
maybe it will take those sweet memories along.
and when that day truly happens,
i know everything has come to an end.
my thoughts have gone disarray * haha. im talking about so many different issues. i guess my readers wont understand what i am talking about bahs. haha.
oya. i just found out that i can get tanned really easily. today i was sitting at the back of my pa's double-cab car. first time sitting there! it was a nice experience with the wind carrassing across your face and laughing at the curious faces of passerbys. anyway, i got a nice tan after a ride from toa payoh to hougang. haha. good way to suntan yeah. (x
紫藤花花缠绕的神情 悬秘
你像蒸发的背影
我垂坠的心情 摇曳
不出声音 精彩没结局的戏
我们像不像电影
当看着人都散去
我才看见我自己
紫藤花 迎风心事日升夜降
越想逞强去开了
笑声就越哑
紫藤花 把心栓在旋转木马
能愿意不再喧哗
还念念不忘旧情话
最爱美的人最难忘记
因为还留下梦境
最浪漫的人最难清醒
不信谁无情
假如能像风和雨
一次又疏离又亲密
不问你不说的秘密
快乐会不会延续
紫藤花 迎风心事日升夜降
越想逞强去开了
笑声就越哑
紫藤花 把心栓在旋转木马
能愿意不再喧哗
还念念不忘旧情话
爱情在这么的故事别离
而是感动的回忆 让人很容易
站在原地
以为还回的去
紫藤花 迎风心事日升夜降
越想逞强去开了
笑声就越哑
紫藤花 把心栓在旋转木马
能愿意不再喧哗
还念念不忘
紫藤花 迎风心事日升夜降
越想逞强去开了
笑声就越哑
紫藤花 把心栓在旋转木马
能愿意不再喧哗
还念念不忘旧情话
风尘叹雪十八一朵花
10:20 PM
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